Nick and I are very much alike. We both come from bad home situations, we both have copious amounts of trauma, and we're both butch.

Despite being the decisionmakers of our friend group, we are both paralyzed when it comes to our own lives. We both want to be better- to get better, even- but neither of us can right now.

I hope that one day we'll both be able to make it through a day without a breakdown. It seems like a small feat, but it's important.